I'm on a mission
To dare to just do the positive things. Maybe I've been going about it backwards. Maybe that's what's been missing.
I'm considering the Words from my better half, that I should try just doing the positive happy things that bring me joy, rather than spending an hour researching and making lists before I allow myself to DO the Thing.
I've been resistant to that idea, retorting that I enjoy making the lists and collecting the information, and that it's worth just as much as the actual activity. And, that's true, in part. But -- hear me out on this (@ myself) -- maybe I can and should do the lists and the collection, after I take the leap of faith into doing what brings me joy without preparation.
I think that's been the whole point I've been missing. The lists and collecting are joyful for me... Yet postponing the bigger joy with smaller joys gives my brain more time to talk me out of doing the Thing at all. And, then I justify it by telling myself "at least I made the lists, so I've done enough to make myself happy".
The irony of me writing this blog post isn't lost on me, considering the above. But, I want to remember this -- and give my better half another link containing my own words to send back to me, when I need reminding.
Wish me luck on my mission.
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