Hope
So, I waded my way through the muck and the apathy and the discontentment.... And I found myself feeling a small spark of joy at the idea of properly starting a solo ttrpg: Iron Valley by M.Kirin.
And I started it, properly. I rolled and filled out everything for the town, the species and type of people who live there, my character, a villager, and got the ball rolling on spring 1, year 1.
It was worth staying awake and trying.
Goodnight, to anyone who may read this.